For my third NeuroNote, I watched
the film Still Alice. This film follows Alice, who is a mother, teacher,
wife, and friend, as she experiences symptoms of memory loss and eventually
discovers that she has Familial Alzheimer’s Disease.
This film
began by showing Alice, her husband, and her three children gathering to celebrate
“the most beautiful and intelligent woman” they have ever known. Alice is a
loving mother who has three very different children, but only wants the best
for each of them and gives them as much love as she can provide. The movie goes
through various days of Alice’s life and shows the different encounters she has
when she is not able to recall random things from her memory. It begins by
showing her on her normal run and becoming disoriented on her route. After this
event, she goes to see a neurologist alone to discuss these small slip-ups in
her memory. Upon the first visit with the neurologist, she is prompted to
recall a name and address, which she is unable to do. After her appointment,
she is seen re-introducing herself to her son’s girlfriend and forgetting
recipes she has always made. At this point in the film, I began to realize that
individuals with Alzheimer’s disease are not just disoriented to their
surroundings, but they lose the memories of things they enjoy doing for their
children, like making banana pudding. Those small things that mother’s like
Alice enjoy doing are stripped from them and it feels as if her role as a
mother is also being stolen.
When she returns to see the neurologist, she is
formally diagnosed with Familial Alzheimer’s Disease. Her children then decide
to be tested for the genetic disease in which one child tests negative, one
refuses to see their results, and one child is positive, but is also pregnant
with twins. I was crushed by this news because as strong as Alice has tried to
be, she now has to be strong for her daughter because she feels at fault for
her daughter’s horrible future. A caring, devoted, and intelligent woman who
has done no wrong has not only been diagnosed with a disease that will steal
all she has ever known from her, but she now feels like a burden to her family and
must live knowing that she has made her future part of her daughter’s future.
This impact on her life drove her to film a video on her laptop for her future,
very disoriented self to watch that will instruct her to overdose. This broke
my heart. How can a person be in such a dark place that they feel that is the only
way out? Jumping to the end of the film, Alice drops the pills that she is
instructed to take, her husband moves to take a new job, and her youngest
daughter, Lidia, becomes her caretaker. Lisa Genova, once again, ends the story
in a confusing scene which prompts the viewer to think about what the rest of
Alice’s life will be like.
I chose to
complete my neuronote over Alzheimer’s type Dementia because although I feel
that I have a good grasp on the signs, symptoms, and impact of it, I have only
experienced this condition from the sidelines. I felt that the best way for me
to dig deeper into this disease was to watch a film, even if it is not based on
a true story, and put myself into the lives of those affected by Alzheimer’s
Disease.
By doing this, I have not only
developed a new sense of compassion for those who are forced to experience this
disease first hand, but I have also become profoundly scared of what this
condition does to a person. The way it steals your own thoughts and loved
memories from you breaks my heart and genuinely scares me. However, it has also
encouraged me to pour every bit of myself into the opportunities I will be
given in the future to work with individuals who are diagnosed with Alzheimer’s
because they truly need every ounce of support they can get because they are
still the person they have always been. They did nothing to deserve this
horrible condition, but they do deserve everything they desire because the
things they hold closest to their hearts—memories—are being stolen from them
and they have no way to defend themselves. I am determined to be that support
and that reassurance for someone one day.
This film
also showed the importance of loved ones in your life if you are diagnosed with
this disease. Not only for support, but for someone to trust to take care of
you, even when you aren’t sure who they are or why they are with you anymore. They
will pick up the pieces that you aren’t aware you’ve dropped. You need that
person to complete the small things in your life that you never thought you
could need another person for. Someone who will accept every part of you
without judgement when you slip up. Someone who can look into your confused,
lost eyes and realize that you are still the person they love and will ensure
that you are provided with the best care possible. I believe that if you are
looking for someone to spend your life with, you need to put yourself in this
situation and ensure that your spouse can be that someone.
I accessed
this film on Amazon for $2.99. If anyone is interested in furthering their knowledge
of Dementia or Alzheimer’s Disease, this is a great movie to watch. It will
prepare you for what you will most likely encounter in a future in OT and grow
your OT heart even larger than you thought it could.
Genova, L. (Producer), Glatzer, R. (Director). (2014). Still Alice [Motion Picture]. United States: Sony Pictures Classics.